I've tried so many times to quit caffeine and this time I'm succeeding, and I'm sure I won't go back to it again, like some past times when I quit so many days and wasted them by going back. Caffeine stimulates your psyche. You cannot have peace if you take it. You body functions normally when you don't take any stimulant, and you can feel blissful in that state.

You have more patience, you are calmer, you see things differently when you are at peace with them, and you have great motivation to do daily tasks, while if you take it, you are motivated to do things in some time and feel utterly lazy at other times; when you are away from it completely, you can feel lively and alive ALL THE TIME, while if you have it, your heart beats fast and you feel "lively" during some hours, and then when you have it less or don't take it, you feel painfully sluggish. Also you have ability to deal with negative energy from things and people more.

Put in your body what's good and your mind will be clear, atop of refraining from taking full-of-choresteral-saturated-fat-hormones-bad-energy food. Yeah, I've believed lately that meat can cause spiritual downsides.

Caffeine asserts you the withdrawal symptoms when you suddenly stop taking it: I've had it quite many times: sluggishness, wanting to sleep all day, migraine - This indicates that caffeine is a drug. Any drug is bad for you, spiritually and physically, because you feel "good" for a some time, then when you don't have it, you are not happy, and want more of it. If you feel sleepy during the day, sleep and let your body rest, instead of stimulating yourself, but even you don't sleep, you still feel good! Try it and you will feel very happy.

Hunger for the taste of coffee and caffeinated tea? Think that other healthy drinks are just as tasty and think that the horrible negativities can't be accuses to have it anymore. Remind yourself that you are choosing peace or choosing to live in the world of pain for body and mind.

To love is to be passionate

What is this word Love of which the meaning has been twisted forever?

It seems we never truly love someone eventhough we are intimated with someone physically, and also we never love other people or any living being.

Possession is not love. We cannot not possess anyone. The thinking that we can belong to someone is false. Nothing can be belonged to. They just exist there.

Love is not "seperative" between mine and yours (Does love mean loving one but not another?).

Love is not between two images, having images about someone. If it is so, we suffer when we loose someone because their images are no longer with us.

Love is not based on pleasures, if it is so, when we loose someone, we suffer because we instinctively feel that they no longer give pleasures to us.

Love being connected with the immeasurable energy, having mutual intense energy. Being connected with someone that way brings freedom from inner confinement and therefore generate the inner intense feeling of love that is cannot be described. It's a real freedom with no contamination of inner suffering and conflict.

Love is not possession, not seperative, not image-based and not based one pleasures, but rather a quality and energy of intense passion.

Also, love and compassion are the same. To love is to naturally care and to give without wanting anything for oneself.

When we love - and not the meaning of love that most people automatically feel or define - we are free and we are compassionate to all living beings. We can be with someone but we don't have to possess. We can have intimacy and at the same time love passionately.

Not Spending Money is Not Self Control

They say we earn a lot of money to spend on things to answer our wants so that we are happy.
Eventhough we earn a lot of money, it doesn't make sense to spend on what we don't need.
Eventhough we earn a lot of money, our aim shouldn't be spending on what we don't need.
Because happiness doesn't depend on spending.
People who earn a lot of money say, "Then I won't have happiness, if I self-control myself like that."
But people on the opposite realm of life say, "Not spending eventhough you earn a lot is not about self control at all." Because their happiness doesn't depend on spending, they are happy when they don't spend, and they are sad when they spend with the much money they have. Because they find joy and happiness in realizing spending money unnecessarily costs a lot of burdens to the society and the environment. And because they find happiness and joy in other things that are not "things".

Being Free or being Imprisoned in a Prison - You Choose

Which is better? You choose.

Being in a prison and not knowing you are in the (physical) prison. Suffering (psychologically) hysterically inside without knowing you are suffering...The suffering will only show up when things don't go your ways.

Being in the prison (mind prison) and fully realizing you are in the prison and so being free of it. However, you are imprisoned physically, so you suffer pain from being connected to everything but cannot break away and cannot liberate your fellow lives... But you in tune with the deeper realm of life, so you are joyous by having the purpose of doing something to liberate them, and with that realm of life, you can shake the thinking-too-much-of-others easily, so blissfulness is always with you.

Doing things for selfish purpose and disregard the wider pictures

I am writing about doing things for ourselves (for selfish purpose) but disregard other lives (or disregard the wider pictures). I better start by giving you an example to make you understand more clearly. A friend said it's good you will find a trick to chase the dove trapper in front of your house away so that “you won't see the sad incident anymore”. Eventhough it is great and morally-just to chase them away, it seems just that people just do that to do not want to "see the sad incident". I'm not criticizing anyone, I'm just writing to express the philosophy behind it. It is like people would chase the dove trappers away because their "self" is disturbed, not because they feel compassionate for the living beings. Sadness when seeing that kind of incidents if coming from disturbed self is not compassion which frees your mind, but if that sadness comes from selfless love, then you are free from confinement of wanting to satisfy your "self".

Another example, besides not doing things for "self" like the above, is to have feeling for others without condition that they must satisfy you. For example, not wanting to live in some areas of a town. It's great to choose a nice area to live in but you don't disregard people who live in the bad parts of the town. Or take Hong Kong, I don't ever want to live in it but I don't want it to exist and I am feelingful for the people and animals who live in it too.

It's the same with not having children - People who don't have children because they can't afford to take care of them are out of touch. Opposite to people who won't ever procreate children for the benefits of the children themselves and the environment. It's the same with donating money to some social causes just to make yourself be comfortable that you have helped, rather than donating to the causes on which you have comprehensively did research and are aware with your real insight that they really solve the problems at their roots.

Positive Cynicism

Some people call some people cynical because they don't know what cynicism really means. Being cynical doesn't mean it is not good for your inner being - Being cynical can be really healthy and peaceful because you know you are cynic because you are one with love, compassion and truth radically in your heart. Cynicism in this sense differs from cynicism of being grumpy and being against the world (negatively criticizing and looking at the things). It means viewing the things in a new meaning...For example, you see a person buying a plastic good...One person who is buying it thinks nothing but subsconciously there is a voice saying "It is for my convenience of life and I am satisfied". Nothing more than that. The other person who is in need of buying it thinks (conciously), "I am in need to use it, I am not buying it unnecessarily, and I am realizing that eventhough I am buying it I am not buying without realizing that where plastic comes from and what bad it does cause".

This is what I mean buy "blissful cynicism". It's a positive vibrating energy, not the cynicism of wanting to end one's life because the world is too miserable because of humans' evilish conducts. Unfortunately, most people view these people as unhappy and having self-control that stresses them, but in actuality, being aware that comes from love for living beings, the environment, society and the world is an extreme positive energy.

That deep connection with no lovely someone

I was thinking, "What If..."What if a human being knows how to connect with lives around but can never meet the other human they are deeply-connected to be with? Talking everyday about the world we live in, having hugs with deep love connection, waking up everyday and find them by your side knowing Real love is flowering everyday. How about we compare us to other animals (Note: We are animals too - There are "human" and "nonhuman" animals).

Animals are jealous but we don't have to be jealous. Animals are cruel to each others but we don't have to be cruel. Animals are sexual but we don't have to be sexual (we are more sexual than them but we can be less or not at all - not at all means being sexually with no true meaning - Wait! I'm not meaning you have to be against sex. Sex can be a channel of pleasurable release if done without lust, and more importantly if you have sex with deep real love, you are free). These are a few examples of the comparison.

The point of comparison is this question...What are the things that human animal has that nonhuman animal doesn't have? I'm sure it's non-insecurity and deep-love connection to all lives.

So, to reflect my first paragraph, if we already have deep connection, do we have to attach to some particular one our whole life? My answer would be it is Wonderful to be with someone that we deeply connect with. However, it must be real "deep connection" (no false attachment because that is not deep connection which is love).

But if we can never ever be with that someone? Should we be in sorrow? I would be sad myself but if that deep connection is only physical touch that happens with spiritual love, then spiritually connecting with other people without the touch is the same. And being in in tune and having the same energy with the people who share your view of life with is one of the best presents you can ever have. I'm sure most of us are still sad without that true connection with someone particular, I am myself. But there is always the brighter side if you are in love with life and inner connection you have with all lives, especially if you have friends you have common spiritual views with. Look within.

To love is to be passionate

What is this word Love of which the meaning has been twisted for ages?

Does love mean lustful sexuality and being belonged by and belonging someone?

We all feel we have to be possessed and possessing a person when the truth is that love is a beautiful positive energy rather than possession. And we all feel that "seperative love" between "mine" and "yours" (Does love mean loving one but not another?). For this, we can see that we never truly love that someone eventhough we are intimated with that someone physically and with false attachment, and also we never love other people or any living being because we possess and are seperative.

Love is love. Possession is not love. Possession means wanting someone and the things that we like about him/her for oneself, having images about him/her. Love is not between two images but is being connected with the immeasurable energy, having mutual intense energy. Being connected with someone that way brings freedom from inner confinement and therefore generate the inner intense feeling of love that cannot be described. It's a real freedom with no contamination of inner suffering and conflict.

When we do not love, we suffer from our attachment that they "belong to us" which is a false thing - Because nothing can be belonged to - They just exist there. And when we do not love, we suffer when we loose someone because we think that they are ours and we instinctively feel that they no longer give pleasures to us and that their images are no longer with us.

Love is not possession, but rather a quality and energy of intense passion.

Also, love and compassion are the same. To love is to naturally care and to give without wanting anything for oneself.

When we do not possess, we love, which is not the meaning of love that most people automatically feel or define. We can be with someone but we don't have to possess. We can have intimacy and at the same time love passionately.

Transcend you consciousness into love, and nothing but love

In the new style of yoga class (named Transcendas) I took on Thursday, 9 Feb 2012 with Shane, with integration of Neuro-Linguistic Programming (NLP) into yoga, I learned about the qualities I wanted to bring into and take out of my life. Shane asked to to choose one quality from The Four Perfect Virtues of Buddhism that we would like to bring into our life:

Metta - Learning to be your best friend and then also learning to be a friend to others.

Karuna - Compassion or seeing suffering in yourself and seeing suffering in others, and doing something to overcome your own suffering and the suffering of others.
Mudita - Being happy when you see others happy.
Upekkha - Having an equanimous and non-reactive mind - being equally non-reactive to ups and downs of life.

I chose Karuna - because I wanted to make my life to be of service to all lives Better. My current ways of living, though better than some others, are not good enough. So I spoke the word compassion in my mind while doing yoga poses that resembled bringing good energy into myself.

Shane also asked us to have in our minds a quality that we would like to discard from our lives/transform. In the actual class, I chose jealousy (like people with more beauty, haha), but I realize now that I want to choose "Minding others' bad treatment to me." Not that I can't retain my mind's stability when facing people saying bad to me, but sometimes I can't help feeling bad, though not too much.

And I want to transform bad treatment by others into Upekkha and love - into thinking that I might act wrongly, so I should improve; that I would never treat the same to anyone; and that everyone makes mistakes - Why do you expect humans with worldly nature to be perfect? It's not about forgiving - forgiving means you hate others which must happen before you forgive them, but understanding and working towards changing inner beings of all.

The best that you could be is.....

You can't be the best, so be what you are but understand them always.

Issue most people are obsessed to

If people are good to you, that is good, because good relationship and affection are important in our life. If people are bad to you, that is also good, because it can test your forgiveness, patience, love and stillness of your psyche.

Narcissistic “fulfillment”

Will we continue to stand idly by as C. Wright Mills' “Power Elite” reduces us to over-consumptive, indentured automatons, with no voice and little choice but to devote our lives to the hollow, meaningless pursuits of materialism, the bread and circuses they provide, and narcissistic “fulfillment” via the wage and debt slavery that enables the perpetuation of their obscene gluttony and condemns our souls to pecuniary bondage?
-Thomas Paines Corner

Seeing is Not Thinking

An extract from THE GREAT LEAP OF MIND - Rubén Feldman González

Perhaps you'll agree with me that we have learnt to be incoherent and to insult intelligence moment by moment.

You are insulting intelligence right now smoking your tobacco cigarette. But it's not enough if I tell you. If you don't see right now what you are doing (in Unitary Perception) you'll never stop smoking.

QUESTION: I have to see that smoking is incoherent and unintelligent. But I see it and I don't stop smoking.

R.F.G.: You don't see that smoking is unintelligent, you think it is. When you see what smoking is you'll stop smoking immediately. To see is not to think.

Let's have another example of incoherence: "To procreate more children and earn more money is good for mankind."

In reality intelligence shouts to me that overpopulation and greed are destroying the livable surface of the planet and are endangering the life of all mammals, including my little dog and mankind.

For the first time in the written history of man we face the possibility of the end of mankind.
There is interpersonal incoherence, incoherence between ideas and belief, incoherence between man and nature, between the use of technology and the survival of man, incoherence between belief and action, etc.

QUESTION: I believe I understand that part of the problem is to have overvalued thought, the self and even our gross fantasies as if they were something "spiritual."

R.F.G.: Yes. But we don't see (in Unitary Perception) that the ecological and economic collapse of the industrial civilization (both capitalist and communist) have their root in overvaluing thought.

We are all going to die. You know.

The understanding that we are mortal, that nobody avoids that fate of man, brings great sorrow. That's why we spend our life avoiding to think of death and denying (unconsciously) the sorrow of thinking about our own death "when everything goes o.k."

We dont's talk about the man who wants to die because his cancer hurts.
When everything goes okay we deny the sorrow of knowing we are going to die.
Then we escape from that fundamental sorrow (which is also anger and fear).
The escapes are the search for profit, prestige, fame, power, pleasure, entertainment, etc.
Those escapes are easier when we believe the moment of the death is far away.

I say we have to understand paradox, because it is a necessary paradox to talk about silence. To talk about silence is not incoherent, it is a paradox.
There is something specific to do in silence. I call it Unitary Perception.

Another paradox is to understand that we live fully only when we accept that we are going to die and when we stop avoiding the sorrow of knowing we are going to die.
To live with death is to renounce the habit of verbalizing. Right here starts Unitary Perception.

Real Revolution

So what will make you change? Please ask yourself, burn with that question, because we have fallen into habit. Your house is burning, and apparently you do not pay attention. So, if you don't change, society remains as it is. And clever people are coming along saying that society must change, we need a new structure and the structure then becomes more important than man, as all revolutions have shown.

After considering all this, is there a learning, is there an awakening of intelligence, is there a sense of order in our lives? Or are we going back to the same routine? If you have that intelligence, that goodness, that sense of great love, then you will create a marvellous new society where we can all live happily. It's our earth not Indian earth, or English earth, Russian earth; it's our earth where we can live happily, intelligently, not at each others' throats. So, please give your heart and mind to find out why you don't change - even in little things. Please pay attention to your own life. You have extraordinary capacities. It is all waiting for you to open the door.

Krishnamurti
Chennai 3rd Public Talk, December 29, 1979